The simple answer
The secret of alchemy… feel your body and feel how wonderful it is if you pay close attention to your body. Many of the secrets of painting can be unlocked without a teacher. We need to talk about energy. Energy is not just how you start a painting it’s how you start Everything. in the abstract world of ideas creation is frictionless. That’s what makes imagination such a wonderful space to exist in. But in the world, every activity has a certain activation energy, like a chemical reaction. So you need a burst of energy to start something otherwise you will just think about it and think about it and think about it. figure out what you need to get this burst of energy. If you need a cup of coffee that’s fine. For me what is tremendously useful for magnifying and capturing vital energy necessary for this process is the retention of the bodies natural creative fluid. Sexual energy is the concentrated form of creative energy. Think about it like this, is there any work of art in history, even the most supreme among them, Hampton’s throne, the Sistine chapel, any work of art, that could rival complexity and perfection reflected in the conception and growth of a human embryo? Taken abstractly as an artistic process the dance of chemicals in the perfection of unfolding is 10,000 times greater than any creative achievement a human can otherwise participate in. And in doing so certainly the most unremarkable uncreative men can have an impact greater than any work of art we could produce. Something that not only ripples, but tears through history, like Genghis Khan leaving his mark on the steppe. So conception is the divine human act. The paragon of our creative abilities. Contained within men is the seed of this potent creativity, which is often spilled haphazardly in pursuit of orgasm and hallucination. We are shepherds of this divine creative energy given to us by God. If you do not waste it, this energy will bolster you, and the activation energy necessary at the beginning of an artwork comes naturally. Another way which I’ve thought about this in the past is that when you’re a young artist, you’re often in crisis. Identity, crisis, financial, financial crisis, reputational, crisis, romantic crisis, the list can go on. It is well acknowledged that the best conditions for achievement is crisis. The stereotypical example being a mother lifting a car off of her child. so when we were young were able to make good work intermittently. As I look back on my own life, I attribute many of my best works to moments of crisis. The inherent limitation of crisis is that it’s short-lived, that’s its very nature. A person cannot exist in such a state for a long period of time. There are certain ways to imitate the qualities of such a state without all of the emotional ramifications. Primarily through retention. Sexual crisis is perhaps the most potent form of crisis a person can endure. Given that it is our highest evolutionary objective to reproduce. Heartbreak is only a swell on the ocean that is sexual crisis. So that’s alchemy. Retention combined with self knowledge. More or less semen can be seen as the philosophers stone in fourth dimensional time. I noticed that when I have a really successful painting session I get really horny. Energy and creative energy or linked inextricably. There’s one big river of source energy. And it splits and forks and one fork of that river is sexual energy and other fork is all of our creative activity that is non-sexual activity creativity activity. The more water flows down one path, the more dominant that becomes the more the river bed widens and the more the energy easily flows in that direction. If you spent the last 10 years of your life masturbating allowing energy flow down that path and it’s very reinforced very easy to continue. The goal is to redirect the water. Damn the sexual activity to allow the bed to reestablish and grow over so the temptation no longer holds us in that direction and all of our creative energy and allowed to flow elsewhere. it’s a bit more complicated than that because there’s also feedback loops from super productive creative activity back into sexual and creative activity… there is a positive feedback with creative activity. Whereas with sexual activity the energy just is wasted and you body has to naturally regenerate creative energy which takes time. With creative activity the energy starts to loop back on itself and then you can get caught up in tremendous current of creative activity that becomes ecstatic. In my full generation family line no one‘s ever done this I’ll be the first to absolutely fucking grind myself into dust and pursuit of something I believe in. I don’t care anymore. I’m free. I mean, I care but I rebuke all that prevents me from achieving my goals. I will the world with such determination people are swept off their feet in presence of my perseverance and my stubbornness and my single minded focus that can shoot through anything like a laser. I move through institutional prejudice and I trample ideas of what success non-success look like. I’m a whole new thing. I’ve never seen anything like that before fucking change this whole fucking world because I am a well of limitless energy